Updated: Nov 28, 2019
When I told him the inside of his knee was a sacred place, a beautiful thing, he scoffed at me.
It’s just a knee, he said.
Had he seen the pictures?
The same pictures the orthopedic surgeon showed me in the waiting room in early morning after it was over,
smiling at the results of his artist’s hands,
the delicate reshaping of my lover’s left knee damaged in an accident?
Inside the jagged edge of meniscus had been carved off to look like the inside of a Greek church—smooth, creamy, white domes
of quiet, grey, cavernous spaces
as dark as the corners of an attic a girl would not dare enter
without holding the hand of her best friend
I said it to the surgeon, too: beautiful
and secretly decided that special place, that knee, belonged to me and needed my protection
I’d claimed other damaged parts, too—
the crinkles at the edges of his eyes
the solitary angry burn on his right arm
the delicate pink scar between his collarbones.
Turns out that knee was the only place on the inside
with all its apparent mysteries
I’d ever be permitted to see.